My partner Sean graduated recently from a program for web development. He and I both took a big risk at the beginning of 2017 by quitting toxic jobs and creating new paths in our careers. I have done this many times in my life and have always been a free-spirit when it comes to change in jobs and careers. I have always bounced back quickly and never regretted those decisions. My attitude is if you are unhappy, change it and something better will come along! I believe that mindset developed in part to the trauma that ensued because of my suffering and battle with OCD at such young age. It has served me well as an adult.
However, that attitude is NOT one that comes easy for Sean. He focuses more on long-term and that is what keeps him comfortable. So, the recent change, while for the better, has been challenging for him in getting comfortable in the uncertainty of when and what the right fit for his next job will be. Being comfortable in uncertainty is not his strong suit, so it makes him feel very stressed!
Since he graduated, I have been trying to support and motivate him the best I know how, but sometimes doesn’t feel so encouraging to him because we have two different outlooks on career. I assure him that it will take time but things will work out. I use my experience and his past experiences as examples of how things have continued to build and work out better because of taking risks. He hears the things I say, but it is hard for him to believe that support and normalization when I am not in the same boat as him.
Yesterday, he was in a more optimistic and relaxed place than he has been in a while and I inquired what had changed. He told me that he met up with a colleague who was experiencing the same frustration and anxiety in regards to job searching and uncertainty. Talking with his colleague helped him feel so much less alone, and less in his head about what he was doing ‘wrong’ vs what is just normal anticipation in such a big transition. He likened it to what I do as a peer support for individuals suffering with OCD. And my eyes completely opened.
Working with a certified, experienced peer support with mental illness is invaluable the same way it turned my partner’s entire outlook around when he conversed with a colleague who could say ‘me too’. Symptoms, stigma, and the emotions of shame, guilt, and embarrassment accompanying mental illness can be isolating and lonely. There are so many layers of confusion and trauma that build inside of us before, upon diagnosis, and afterward in learning to live under the label of mental illness. Qualified therapists are imperative to navigate the medical symptom management, but so much can be leftover that individuals can’t always process–or don’t necessarily want to process–by themselves, and it can feel confusing on where and who to turn for support.
Stigma keeps many of us from turning to family and friends when we need someone to listen or for support. Mental illness often makes us feel like a burden (even when we aren’t!) and asking for help or to be listened to can solidify that myth. Talking to a therapist is beneficial, but it can feel like something is missing because although they can treat the illness, they have not walked in our shoes. That layer of stigma, shame, and guilt thickens and can become an unhealthy foundation in our emotional recovery.
This is a great place peer support can add a supplemental layer of support and normalization. For me, receiving peer support for the emotional trauma and turmoil of the experiences of my illness was a safe place to land. It rounded out my recovery. I didn’t feel alone in my sadness, anger, and grief. I had read stories of people with my type of OCD, but being able to have someone walk alongside me, listen to my pain, and say ‘me too’ helped me sink into my skin that I had felt so disgusted by for so long. I no longer felt like I had to hate myself, despise what had happened to me, or apologize for who I was. My peers didn’t push me into recovery, they walked down the path with me into it. They made me feel understood, safe, and less like a monster or alien for what I had been through.
The benefits of working with a peer support specialist when living with OCD are immeasurable. OCD is a complex illness with layers of shame, guilt, and doubt. A trained peer support understands how not to exacerbate symptoms or contribute to compulsions while providing a sense of hope because of the similarity of emotion and fears we all experience. OCD is an anxiety disorder, but often gets overwhelmed with emotion and confusion because it is egodystonic. Because we have insight that what we are obsessing about makes no sense and doesn’t align with our character, we tend to see the inability to control it as a reflection of who we are, our strength, and even our intellect. A trained peer support specialist knows how to validate the emotion, normalize the experience, and emphasize the reality of hope while understanding the delicate balance of not worsening the client’s symptoms. This strengthens trust, empowers the client, and encourages them to find the strength inside of themselves to push back on their illness. It also helps them feel like they do not have to travel this journey alone and there is a lifeline in their dark hours.
Last night I thought about what I do in my peer support practice to help others who live with OCD and are working toward recovery. By comparing the two, it completely made sense that even though I knew my attempt at normalizing my partner’s struggle had good intentions, it helped him more to have someone who had been in his shoes give him validation. There is something to be said for all of us by hearing the words ‘me too’. It made me understand his situation more, and then it made me feel grateful I am able to do that very thing with so many individuals living with the tormenting illness of OCD. It always feels less scary knowing we are not alone.
I work with clients worldwide providing peer support for OCD as well as resources and referrals for therapists who treat OCD with evidence-based therapy. My services are ongoing or as needed. The feedback I receive from the individuals I work with is they feel less alone, less terrified about what they have experienced or what they will experience, and more hopeful that even though the road may be long and windy to recovery, they know they do not have to walk it alone. Working with individuals and giving back to them what peer support gave to me has been the biggest honor of my life.
If you are interested in peer support, please visit www.chrissiehodges.com or www.treatmentforocd.com to find out more about my services.
**Disclaimer: Peer Support is not to be used as a replacement for therapy. It is a supplemental service in supporting you before, during, and after treatment for normalization of symptoms and emotional turmoil with mental illness
**If you are looking for peer support and are paying for services, PLEASE ask for proof of certification from your peer support. If an individual is not certified through a state-credentialing body, do not pay for their peer support services. Peer support requires training, supervision, and certification. Individuals claiming to do peer support without these qualifications cannot provide effective peer support and could likely make your symptoms worse.
Thank you,
Chrissie Hodges
Certified Peer Support Specialist; ERP Coach/Effective OCD Treatment; Author ‘Pure OCD: The Invisible side of Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder’